niks.

There’s a reason why I don’t watch dance videos.

It’s not because I’m not interested.
It’s not because I don’t like to watch others dance.
It’s not because I’m lazy (okay, maybe just a little bit).

It’s because I have a tendency to become all-consumed by things.
It’s because my heart rate goes a little too cray.
It’s because I want to be them, but realize there’s too much growth to be done.
It’s because I want them to be IN. MAH. LIFE.
It’s because when I watch things like THIS, I go fangirl crazy and fucking DIEEE.

There is a reason why when Sam Dizon (@uptowndemeanor) and Christian Rodriguez asked me if “I knew who Brian Puspos was”, I said “no”.

IT’S BECAUSE NOW THAT I KNOW HIM, I HAVE A HUGE FUCKING FANGIRL DIEHARD CRUSH ON A DANCER WHO I KNOW SOLELY THROUGH YOUTUBE AND DO NOT HAVE MUCH OF A CHANCE WITH MEETING, CREEPING, AND DEMANDING HIM TO BE MY FRIEND.

Okay, deep breaths. I’m gonna stop. My stalker crazy is coming out at 4AM, and I had the sudden thought that if I ever was to make good friends with Mr. Puspos, he’s gonna go through my Tumblr, and this post is gonna come back to haunt me. I’ll apologize in advance… I’m a little bit cray. HAHA<3